Brett Ellis

Warped was great this year!

saw friends i have missed, made new friends, i like doing all the north east dates because i get to meet people from all over instead of just the area that im from.

and i get to see my friends for a few days before they disappear on the road. rock and roll i guess.

a little stressful on saturday, it was my home show, saw a lot of people i know, some drama, but nothing i couldn't handle with a bottle of vodka and a backstage pass, went and hid out by the busses.

had SO much fun with lana, she stayed over the whole time.

loved every minute with raquel, she is truly one of my closest friend and one of the very few people that will be brutally honest with me, and not bullshit me around.

great to see jac, thanks again for the bracelet i think DEATH suits me very well haha

it took me literally 2 days to recover from warped tour, my body was so sore from driving and walking and standing for hours and hours. and not sleeping and being dirty and not showering haha. there is no other way to do it as far as im concerned. stick to my roots thats what i say

i dont see a point in trying to be something your not, evolve with the times, but stay true to yourself and always look at life from the same eyes that you have always looked at it from, never let your mind takeover the way you do things. the human mind is a very powerful thing and we can talk ourselves into just about anything...

at the moment i am ready for bed its 11:30 or something. im listening to some song i heard on some kids page (sometimes late a night i look at everyones page that friend requests me haha should have taken the LURKER bracelet)

this next week is marys b day party at sevalas in brooklyn on saturday and thursday is the motionless in white show with raquel and lana mary and may!

i need to figure out what im wearing to all this shit.

the new four year strong video i worked on is out and up!
should be on MTV2 and Fuse also in the next few months.

its great i love everyone that worked on it and i cant wait to see everyone soon.

right now i need to go to sleep.
i think im gonna watch BAPS (stands for black american princesses... AMAZING MOVIE SO FUNNY!)



hope everyone is great!
B

hey guys

so if you dont know who they are i suggest you check them out there a band called Four Year Strong

im working with them this weekend, i am now a part of Maneater Productions out of LA (just did aidens new video as well)

im doing the styling, makeup, hair, and in this case costumes, and art direction and will be working on a bunch of videos in the near future. this is fairly new to me and super exciting and will have photo's and blogs on my travels

going to be in Mass all weekend in the bands home town working with them and everyone on the team

gonna be a great shoot and everyone is really amazing at what they do

super busy for the next week until after the 6th

so everyone have a great 4th of july and ill see you at warped tour

whose going??

Brett

went on more interviews then i have ever been on in my entire life

if you dont work at something it isn't worth anything.

well im working fucking hard.
and it will pay off sooner then later

im pretty tiered so im not going to make this a novel. i hope everyone has a nice fathers day and does something nice
im not quite sure what to get mine yet, im working on it as we speak online haha

and if u dont have a father do something nice for someone else's dad, no matter how much you hate your parents from time to time or get into fights or disagree on shit they are still your parents and one day more then likely you will be someone like they are which scares the hell out of me but its true

i think im more like my grandmother though... like splitting image. nervous italian smoker who says fuck too much

thats me

ive been listening to deftones all day



im not going to bug myself out about guys anymore, i did that wayyy too much in the last 6 months, its summer and im working soo much on my career right now and i have some insane things planned and its going to be a lot of fun but im not counting my chickens before they hatch u know what i mean,

its summer i want a pleasant distraction, someone to hold my hand and watch the black cauldron with



oh well haha

i got sonic youth tickets today they are playing a free show at battery park in lower manhattan on july 4th u had to reserve tickets online only at a certain time and got em which is amazing

i have always wanted to see them
i have to pick up my tickets at the box office next week

been a long time since i went to a real concert, like a band i really loved and wanted to see, not a show or festival like bamboozle where im not really entertained but a concert

i suggest if your between the ages of 15 and 21 you should listen to this record, especially teenage riot



how is everyones summer so far
anything fun planned

im trying to go to vegas by my birthday in november


who is down to party hahahahaha



<3 this turned into a novel anyway

so this is basically how it goes.

i have 2 people to address just to get it out of the way and clean some dirty laundry if they are reading this.

i dont hate you whatsoever, i actually like you, which is something that i shouldn't be doing, so i eliminated the temptation of even reading your away messages. just something i had to do for me, and someone told me recently that you need to do what makes you happy and if your not happy there is no way anyone around you can if they give 2 shits about you, which i think is very true, and i already knew that but sometimes you need a friendly reminder from friends that your being stupid and need to get your priorities straight.

and as for you... you have wronged her so many times, i am sick of getting involved, because empty threats about getting my face bashed in is not something i want to deal with on a daily basis when i have my own life to lead. but i do care about raquel very much and for someone to disrespect that time after time, is absolutely rediculous i want to wish nothing but horrible things for you and your life... but i dont have to they will happen all on there own. for someone that cant even been seen in a photograph, that acts modest ALL the time, really does know how to cause a scene, and over and over again. and im the shit talking faggot right, guess u were right all along huh.

OK
on a better note, im going to raquels for a few days

i am bringing purple rain with me, im going through a huge prince kick right now i cant help it, its taken over my body haha



i dont know how anyone on this site feels about metal but my friends just released (well a few months ago) a great record that i suggest everyone listen to who this applies to



they are insanely sick, i am disappointed with most music in that genre that has been coming out post like 2004, they crushed that with 2 records and an ep

i dont think there myspace takes html in comments so if your reading this here is some live crap i found on my computer from tour w bury your dead.



hmm what else is neww...
not all that much, goin on dates, loving summer, its gonna be 97 degrees out today in ny, kinda like the band but even more uncomfortable to have around

i cant stand humidity, i need to take a shower, my hair is nice and easy for summer, did a little summer cut on it, kinda have it like in the old days, i like it its comfy.

how is everyone else doing whats new, whats goin on, whats hot off the press

so im gonna end this with something my friend mary made circa 05 06 ish

hilarious and most of the photos of people are friends or ex friends



have fun this summer and be safe i am going to try and write a blog once a week
gotta get ready for raquels, ikea, shopping, swimming pools, the dirty jerz hollaaaa

i have been all over the place lately, no updates aha sryyyyy.

im generally not on the computer, so when i am i try to just do everything at once and update things and send out my e mails and check everything u know the deal

i am never on that stickam site but i made one and i was talking to my friend last night and i had no makeup on it was after 1 am im sure and i was makeing fun of kids on that site because its just them in a dark room with 1 light



haha

i found some fun old photos of me and some of my friends i love them <33









apparently compassion is unattractive

who knew...

you ARE just another person to me, trust me...


i think its funny when people get some sick satisfaction knowing that they have you by the balls. shouldn't you be flattered that someone has a crush you, you are so all about yourself that it just boosted your ego. someone can be the hottest person in the world but when they act like that they turn ugly, you had control. i guess i am evil and vindictive... i could never be i liked you too much.

oh well... where is the booze



i am going to come out with a tee shirt with my friend, just something simple, no clothing line or anything huge.

something small will be sold at various shows in the ny metropolitan area, ill have more info sooner, what do u guys think would you buy one there is going to be an online store

its going to be a crazy take on a classic rock tee shirt, for girls and guys, youll see

let me know what you think, because its a big undertaking even for just starting out with 75 shirts, and see how they sell, gonna be a 3 color print.

i dont know.

everyone tells me this is me



haha i love life
how is everyone?

semi precious weapons party tonight in the city

MTV filming the whole show

i like my hair black again

easy for summer
i like washing it all the time now haha

that wont last
lol

whats everyone been doing lately, ive been really into this bohemian look for summer

bell bottoms
brown belts
boots or sandals

beads

tie dying everything
youll see

i still wanna look like me i just wanna incorporate it into my wardrobe haha

i hated bamboozle haha the worst it was so cold and miserable the day i was there i hated it
haha, it was nice to see all my friends though and hang out watch raquel shake her ass and cause
a slight bit of havoc with lana with all of our credential problems i hate security guards

im not having any problems for warped tour, i need to learn how to organize things ahead of time because relying on other people doesn't work for shit, DIY or it wont happen haha

this summer is going to be great i cant wait
new job

i feel like a new boy haha

i have to finish my laundry and get ready and shave for the first time in 2 days
my back has been out from my car accident i had a few mounths back
back problems are the worst ever, i feel like an old man sometimes

haha
oh well

so today i went to breakfast with mary and chloe

from there we went to cheep clothing store i was bored as hell some cute sunglasses but i have a bin of them and im trying not to waste money on shit being that im buying an apartment in a few mounths

its pointless to rent when you can buy something for the same payments a mounth and in a few years it will be paid off and then you when u move you can sell it and make double the price

we went to northern thrift in huntington where i bought vhs'

watched all 5 in the last few hours

died some cloths black
i have to do it again it needs a few times for the color to sink in

i bleached splattered and studded a pair of little keds and a hat that im gonna weat at bamboozle

everything for me is last minute constantly
still figuring out everything with that as i speak

i fixed marys plum hair and chloe did my roots for me
i toned my hair and its whiter then ever

my hair is doing good things right now and im real happy

died my eyebrows let them grow in

i hate how gay guys always over tweeze there eyebrows and put concealer on there lips
i dont know what it is

i cant wait to see rachel at bamboozle i miss her

big plans for the summer!
gonna be working 4 days a week at the salon

warped tour alumni things (CONGRATS JIMMY!)

hmm thats it, tomorrow erinds and booking hair appointments and drinking beers with queers in the evening!

<3

gonna be there hanging out with raquel all day gonna be nice to relax and have a good time

making cloths today
trying to update and write a blogs, i think its good for me, and if someone is going to actually read them then its a win win

i was never much of a blogger i missed that whole thing
i was too busy makeing art and writing in my journal, and doing things in real life haha
i have tons and tons of them

and tons of paintings and stories and little essays i wrote

most are extremely personal though and not for internet, maybe one day a book?
i have always wanted to write a book, might not be a best seller but who knows right?!?

i think its sad that there are so many people in the world that have relatively nothing to say get so much attention for nothing
recording artists that people go insane over whose songs are about nothing
or someone else's lives

i know everything is everyone else's recycled garbage but there are certain things that just need to be stopped hahahah

mission of mercy

today im going to go get some of other peoples recycled garbage
i need to cheer myself up

no more younger guys for me, they all want the same thing (been saying this for over a year, figures)
i really haven't had a serious relationship in 2 years and its about time for me to not start looking but just get into that mindset
i cant be so into my life and get out of my own head
its comfortable there for me so i tend to curl up into my own head and my own ideas and i run with them
which is great because i get a hell of a lot of shit done but it does nothing for my dating life haha

im listening to FischerSpooner right now and getting dressed
spent the morning and part of the afternoon in my apartment
doing e mails and organizing my closet, its a disaster

i needed a day to myself

sat with my friend mark and watched a velvet goldmine... if you have not seen that movie i suggest u rent or buy it, its fantastic, one of my all time favorites.

this is my philosophy on guys,
they are either
straight
taken
or assholes

i always feel like i have so much to say but that its all such complete bullshit that no one would want to hear it, but apparently not because i post bulletins like once sometimes 2 times a day on myspace and i get an insane amount of responses.

spent part of the week with raquel

got salon job in manhattan.

moving up in the world haha, feels good to have a real job, something to call a career and not just something to get me along

im excited for things that are to come.

my friends clothing line things and hanging out with friends making money going on vacations.
someone told me that i should see america before i go overseas. i went to paris when i was 19 so i fucked that up already. although before i was 19 i did see most of the east coast and some of the midwest.

i need to be alone for a while i think
no dating for me

even though all i want is for someone to hold my hand and all that ridiculous shit that just happens in movies

i have been listening to that song Jesus Christ by Brand New
there from long island so im partial to them. i think they are brilliant songwriters and they have been around forever. they have staying power not like some bands right now that seem to come and go and kids just move on to something new. they consistantly have something to say

i miss everyone that left my life in the last 2 years
watched friends die, betray, hurt, and simply just dissapear

im in a good place right now

i got a new macbook

im gonna be moving to brooklyn within a few months

i have 1 foot in the door to starting fresh.
have my job. i want a little place to live
somewhere to throw my shit and call home

and im gonna get one of those cats with the mushed faces

anyone going to bamboozle?

so hair school... done

i have 3 salon jobs in the city right now that want me but i dont know which to take
working that out

for months have been going out seeing old friends working schooling the usual

i erased all my videos

fresh start

<3
how is everyone doing

i couldent get into the city to meet up with raquel, my car is still in the autobody shop from the accident (PS got into a car accident my car looks like a squashed blueberry)

so...

i drank with pat and chloe and there were kids watching porn bloopers and some other messed up shit that made me uncomfortable

i drank sparks and felt 17

i got home and i hate filet men yon, pizza bites mozzarella sticks, chips, ranch dressing, french onion dip and a whole can of olives

i took a xanex and watched an infomercial on dildos and penis pumps on the oxygen network

chloe ate all that shit too minus the steak because shes a vegetarian, she puked in the bathroom and it smelled in my apartment

im listening to xiu xiu right now and it reminds me of when i was 18 and living in philly. when i had blonde hair and wore a locust tote bag, surface piercings and little hats

i love lil kim
if i were to get a sex change i would have to get a race change as well because i would be a mad black woman yell at everyone and love my life

im going to a gay sports bar tonight in manhattan... oxymoron??

my friend samantha wants to hook me up with the bartender, hes probably going to end up throwing me out of the bar

i want to go to bamboozle this year again and just have fun, im sure there is some band im gonna wanna see, im not into many bands that play those things but there are a few and im not embarrassed to like them, i respect musicians because i have been playing since i was in 4th grade. gave up on the music industry before i even thought about going into it, too much politics, if i wanted to deal with that bullshit i would run for senator

anyone going this year? i missed saints and sinners because i was in the hospital which sucked. i had a full inbox of people yelling at me to come there, bumm

anywayyyyyys...

point of this blog is

life is grand and hilarious
upping my game in 08'

im so happy that drama is non existent i dont stand for it anymore, no one is worth it enough to put up with bullshit and thats not being selfish thats being smart

i like to enjoy myself and coexist in the world with other people and im friendly with everyone unless they give me a reason not to, everyone gets the benefit of the doubt

ill never let you push me around

brett

had such a busy end to my week, did hair for 3 days straight and when i wasn't doing hair i was getting hair ready to be done haha

drove raquel to the airport friday morning after a long night of talking and primping and cleaning... and the usual eating and bumming around

saturday went into manhattan for the whole day to see my 2 friends i havent seen in a while Laj and Christina

sooooo good to see them and go shopping and eating... its like thats all i do... eat... whel... and shop

haha

today just bummed around amanda came over and i had to fix her jacked up head piece, i have never met anyone else in my life that can mangle there extensions quite like that girl,

whel i mean they were in for 3 months, but i mean come on amanda haha
gave my friend mike a haircut...

word to the wise if your going to learn a trade such as hair styling, tattooing, computer programming, or landscaapeing because... you will have to cut all your friends hair, tattoo everyone, fix everyones jacked up pc, or plant there flowers and tell them what is wrong with there grass haha

i love it though and what are friends for, haha.

i read an article today that was in the Advocate in 1992 that was an interview with kurt cobain about his bisexuality and punk rock stereotypes it is really a great article i have it printed and in a folder of influencial txt's google it and try to find it

xoxo
hope everyone is well

Brett

so its snowing in long island, and im sitting in my apartment wishing i could go to the store and buy crafts but my little roller skate of a car wont make it down my street because its hilly.

so im in last nights makeup, a metallica tee shirt and my underwear risky business style cleaning my apartment and listening to music

im bored out of my mind friend might come over later so im not here all day alone being in a bad mood haha

finishing my sleeve for christmas, santa is giving me ink this year in my arm via needles haha yumm

alright i think thats all for now, i need to stop fucking around crank up the jams and get cleanin haha that was the worst

ok

xo
meeee

there is something about winter in NY that is just brisk and bitter and dark

its strange the happiest of people turn to coal

trying not to as hard as possible, whel trying not to be more of a bitch then i already am and any more bitter then i already am haha

you know how it is
yesterday sucked soo bad one of those days where you just feel like going to sleep at like 3 o clock, and thats exactly what i did haha
had nothing scheduled so why the hell not

today had a client re schedule, dont exactly know what im gonna do, thinking of canceling the 1 thing i have left and having a "me" day facemask, laundry, cleaning, candles, music, maybe a little shopping later, dont feel like going out and dealing with malls and people

drives me crazy

i cant wait for this time of year to be over
i hate it

i love christmas but i hate the winter,

i dont mind it not being 100 degrees though
that was the worst

just wish that summer was 70 and right smack in the middle of it was christmas
that would rule

xo
Brett

more updates to come

hey guys

so tonight is my b day celebration
the night before thanksgiving is the biggest party night of the year so if your of age... go out and party it up

tonight my friends are throwing me a b day party with cake and presents and everyones coming over and then were going to a club out in long island

it should be good there are strippers and dance music and lots of horrible gay people for me to yell obscenities at and probably get kicked out haha

should be a good time

eating chinese food right now people should be getting here in about 20 min

so taking lots of funny videos... minus the strippers haha

cant wait for the weekend to go to philly and see my bf, the beasts of the east!

aud, if your reading this, get ready for this weekend! haha

xoxoxo
<3

Brett

so 3 mounths i havent been on buzznet

i kindof forget about it

had a lot going on,
getting back into the swing of things, hairs getting long nice and electric blue everyone agrees including my mom that its the best color ive had, so its here to stay

seeing my friends soon in 1 week so excited

my b day is a week from today friday november 23rd

gonna make a new video soon just talking or whatnot little tour of my new little apartment for all my friends that havent been here

i made a lot of mistakes in the past few mounths, a lot of asshole guys i shouldent have talked to, and wasted my time with

it hurts
i love when people think that things only apply to them and feelings only apply to them and its like you dont even have those feelings like you never did and arent capable of them now, whel fuck if im going to let someone try and tell me that


i hope everyone is well and they have a great thanksgiving

updates updates updates comming soon

im still the fucking beast of the east and im ready to kick ass in 2008

done with hair school in a few short mounths so come to manhattan and get your hair did
as for now working in a little shop out here on long island and out of my house

so contact me whatnot
start out small and then conquer the world
someone important said that or something or i wouldent have remembered it

xoxo
Brett

so had the most insane night at ruff club at the annex in manhattan the other night

went with audrey brian and fetus

who apparently believes that i have a clip on rod sewart haircut
haha!

next few days are going to suck big time working the most insane hours but make that $$
pay dem billz, gallery opening on the 28th super excited, if i cant get off work gonna call in sick haha
hmm nothing else really, pretty boring lately cant wait for summer and road trips

and pool parties
gonna have a dress up occasion and get a bartender at my house for summer party
everyone has to get dressed up not formal but u know nice, and im gonna put floting candels in the pool and have my friend DJ

what am i kidding its gonna turn into a fucking disaster and somethings probibly gonna end up on fire

rock and roll
B

whel im wearing the same thing i was wearing last night. my friends sweatpants and a t shirt from some football team and my hair is tied up looking like a nest and i have no makeup on and i really need to shave real bad haha

today is movie day and i think a drive later maybe to the tattoo shop wanna get something new asap my tattoo artist misses me haha

neck tattoo's soon i might get either a J or a V in cursive for my friend joe that died in a car accident recently he was a tattoo artist and was a real special person, so thats something that i need not want to get, just for him you know

death is a real funny thing and really puts life into perspective, and pushes me anyway to move 2ce as fast as i was going before into the future bringing a storm as i go, and embrasing everyone that loves you and everyone who is special and means something

its 10:16 in the morning and im getting all philisophical ahaha

im going to try to write a journal every day

its getting routine and i really like it

today is a nice chill out boring day though and thats how it should be, it is my friend gills birthday tonight so going to tattooed moms on south street in filthadelphia tonight with a bunch of people to celebrate

stoked!

<333

Brett

so im in durty jerz hanging out with christina and chrissy at dodes house everyones favorite aunt WE JUST WATCHED EDDIE IZZARD DRESSED TO KILL AND LAUED OUR ASSES OFF! drinking white russians of course haha, rocking and rolling listening to some music, soon to watch yaya sisterhood like little yenta's ! today went shopping a little cell phone bling a little belts and yet another scarf tomorrow going out in old city possibly taking a drive during the day and hanging out fri and sat night hanging out back in NY again doing st. patrics day in manhattan at invite only party in the east village so excited with mary, chloe, amanda, and all those other long island wach jobs ahh <333 Brett

woke up early
meaning like 9:45

...thats early for me

im geting usto writing every day on here, i think that might be good for me, gives me a sence of routine
drying my last load of cloths and back in the car for my drive back to filthadelphia

for like 2 days and back to manhattan for time with mary chloe and amanda

i hate having to shave my face, lazer hair removal by the end of the year,
getting tarot cards read tonight staying over my aunts shes amazing, u dont get much better then the Dode
that and the movie date all of us have over there haha

ew whel im going to go eat and shave and get dressed and look good today even though im going to be carrying laundry up the stairs to my apartment
ew
im over that
i want to go shopping also
i want to get me and audrey new face masks so when she gets back we can have a spa day and use our crabtree stuff and something new, maybe a new toner or something

i just need stuff all the time
its a problem haha

oh! and i have to thank pat for my guns and roses tee that he got from work for me real real discounted, love him for that

saturday night was a complete bust, playing the dating game is just shitty, im over it, maybe ill get a cat

i might make it 2 cats hhaha
eh fuck

fuck shit up
<3Brett